I am a developer and I have worked as an intern in the past, which wasn’t a big deal, but now I want to find new opportunities and it’s daunting, making programs to show off on GitHub is much easier than to, like, be overwhelmed by the calls, the resumes, the interviews, I almost feel like I am going to get blacklisted from a company if I do bad and that KILLS my motivation if I had any

It’s difficult to even start so I’ve just been procrastinating by telling myself I’ll make a resume after I’m done with a project, and I’m never done with a project, and if I do have a resume, I’m too scared, lazy, or can’t find a place to send it too

Maybe I should try finding a really lazy method, or maybe I should use a fake name to see how it goes, but I don’t feel much confident even then, is there any way to gamify this damned process? What a mess.