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  • AntifaSuperWombat [she/her]@hexbear.netEnglish
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    2 months ago

    Felt exactly the same when my egg cracked. Took me almost a year to finally tell someone else, and even then I only did it because I was forced to.

    But what I’ve learned over the years of being stuck in the closet and being gatekept forever was that it doesn’t matter how scared you are. What matters is how strong your desire to be yourself is.

    I’m still very self-conscious and it’s still scary to go outside and make myself vulnerable. But I nonetheless do it because I just cannot bear to hide my existence any longer. I don’t want to go back to feeling suffocated by living a lie.

    And I guess this strong desire just kind of overrides my anxiety and pushes me forward. So even though a lot of people have told me that I’m brave for being so open about myself, in reality I’m still as scared as you are. It’s just that I have no other choice.