Was it Christianity’s fault or that of those claiming to profess it?

I do not doubt what you are saying - there are very bad Christians out there, this is real. But I would point out that many Buddhist countries are troubled by violence and the gross sexual exploitation of women, but this is not a reflection of Buddhism, either, but rather a reflection of how the teachings have failed to penetrate the hearts of people.

You have a right to be angry… to feel slighted… to feel mistreated… Because that happened. But I would say that true liberation comes from understanding that the people who did this are pathetic - if they did it because they WILLED you to suffer, they are pathetic because of how mentally unwell & spiritually insane they are, and if they did it out of ignorance, they are unskilled & cognitively… dumb.

Be true to your negative emotions, right, but then try to overcome that negativity so you don’t have to suffer the same losses over & over again, right.

I do not want to preach to anybody on this sort of thing - I am not some guru. I am just talking about some of my own pain - I come to grips with it actually through ordering my thoughts and trying to sincerely understand the root cause.