Context:

1. I am almost 400 lbs
2. I’m also being tested for sleep apnea
3. I am diagnosed with binge eating disorder, which I’ve been taking Vyvanse for as well as for my ADHD
4. I’m on the lowest dose of Zepbound, which will titrate up over time
5. I’ve been on it a few days
6. I gained quite a bit of weight after starting a microdose of estrogen, so there’s aspects of that in play as well
7. I somehow managed to get my insurance to cover it with a copay of $15 for 4 weeks of meds (I went in expecting the price to be a prohibitive barrier and ready to be let down so this was a great surprise)

It’s kind of hard to describe how night-and-day it is. I had to google how quickly the effects happen because I thought I was gaslighting myself. Within hours of my first injection, I went from being unable to feel hunger until I was starving and being unable to feel full until my stomach hurt to being able to stop eating whenever I wanted. I can eat a normal amount of food and feel full. No nausea. No metal taste. None of the side effects that people complain about so far. I still enjoy the food. But for the first time in years I can stop thinking about food and having it invade my sense of free will.

All I can say is that if this is a normal relationship to food, everyone who’s ever implied I just wasn’t trying hard enough can go fuck themselves.