I aim to be more human. I aim to be less apathetic as a human. Apathy grows, like a tree, and I aim to prune my own.

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Cake day: June 23rd, 2023

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  • Oh, no need, I already have strategies to help ground my reality thanks to the hallucinations. I think it’s mostly a result of being aphantasic, so the only things I see are real, other than when dreaming. Coupled with intensely vivid imagery it just feels real.

    But my dreams are pretty calm and mundane these days, since I started taking meds for nightmares, and take place in easily recognizable (as dreams) locations. The struggle is more the interactions with friends, waking feeling like I wronged them. But I’ve learned how to handle that.

    I appreciate the concern though :)





  • For me, the computer towers are across the room so I use cheap wireless battery mice and a nice wireless keyboard. I use rechargeable AA for the mice, and they last a pretty decent amount of time. I had a lot of rechargeable AA and AAA already. The keyboard has built in rechargeable battery and can swap inputs with a button press so I just have the one for the towers. If I turned off the backlight it would hardly ever need charging, but since I like the light, it needs a charge every few days of actual use.

    For my laptop, which isn’t across the room, I still use a wireless mouse because I just have them. I can also have one mouse tethered to two dongles and use the same device for two PCs that I don’t have on at the same time, so I do that between the laptop and the gaming pc.


  • I was not taught both, but I try to use both when I post stuff on Lemmy, for the sake of readers. I typically have to look up the conversion.

    Beyond that, I’ve started baking in metric because my super-precise scale handles it nicely, and there are an absolute ton of metric weight-based recipes but not a lot in imperial. Volume-based baking is just bad. It never turns out consistently. Volume is ok for cooking, not baking.

    I also use Celsius for temps in games because that’s usually the default, but not meatspace because everything around me is presented in freedumb units. I don’t really have a preference between the two, but I’d just love if we switched to kelvin. I’m a big fan of scales that start from 0. It’s not even remotely practical for everyday use, but it IS precise!





  • I’ve started buying quality athletic gear rather than regular clothing wherever applicable because of exactly this. I used to blow through socks so that was the first thing I replaced, and since switching to ski socks, not a loss in several years now. Don’t even feel particularly worn in. Shirts lose form more slowly, seams come apart less often, the elastic components don’t disintegrate nearly as quickly because it’s made to withstand frequent washing, etc. and the fabric itself tends to feel better, higher quality, because it is. Plus most of it is stretchy, which is a win for my comfort needs.

    It definitely costs more, and limits options, but I don’t have to waste time and money down the line to replace it. That’s worth a lot to me. And because of how they are put together, with a minimal number of seams held flat with elaborate stitching, I just need to find a cute setting for a design on my ancient early 90s embroidery machine, and I can repair them good as new with minimal actual effort.

    And then for tears and rips, I’m a big fan of visible repairs, where you embroider or patch over the entire rip and lean into it having obvious use. It reminds me of kintsugi, which I very much like.



  • Parthenogenesis is natural, an adaptation for adverse conditions, typically caused by a specific gene (or genes perhaps, the research is pretty young yet). If it happens and they tend their nest like they want to, it’ll hatch and be female.

    Most chickens won’t produce self-fertile eggs at all, and those that can don’t always produce fertile eggs either by my understanding, so most of them will just be wasted. But if you get a specific breed that’s known for it the chances are much higher.








  • I sort of feel that way but I still enjoy some of them on the lighter side, but complicated af in other ways. I’m not smart enough for full automation in most of the games I play, because I’d wildly complicated, but I do enjoy very much learning how game mechanics work, so as long as I can go sufficiently far without any automation, or at most very basic automation, I very very slowly add it in many many hours after I’ve gotten sucked into the game. Usually not until several new games have been played, and dramatically fucked up because I can’t manage everything manually.

    But stuff where automated base building is the main focus so everything else is kinda slow and painful… I try to like it but it’s all just too much and also not engaging enough.


  • Are you under the impression that everyone was required to be functioning at 100% at all times in order to survive or be a meaningfully-contributing member of a society? Because that is so very very far from the truth. The actual labor involved in hunter gather societies amounts to a few hours a day for each individual on average, but that doesn’t mean every individual had something that needed to be done every day in order to be a valued member of their society. Most tasks didn’t happen every day, and those that did didn’t require all hands to do.

    Even after the agricultural revolution, many months of the year were much slower, allowing recuperation to prepare for the labor intensive period, a schedule I’ve liked in the modern era similarly (3-6 mth contracts followed by 6-9 mths of vibing and living off what I saved up during the working phase, supplemented by a variety of projects I find compelling to keep my spending very low or sometimes earn a bit of side money) and I find it works very well to keep my adhd symptoms from being crippling during the active work phase, and I’ve been unmedicated. Then I take a month or so to ooze into the ground to recover from the burnout, and I become productive in my personal life again. It’s a decent compromise if money has to be involved, but it’s sometimes a financial struggle because we don’t value paying people properly right now, an entirely late-stage capitalism problem.

    Beyond that, knowing a lot of things about a variety of specialties and being curious enough to learn, something ADHD people tend to excel at, makes for a variable worker who can be slotted in to fill different needs for others who were unable, or simply when the labor demanded more bodies. Jack of all trades were also incredibly valuable back before modern transportation, especially for smaller communities. Couldn’t really get an actual expert without months of travel if one didn’t just happen to be around. So they got to feel valuable, like they were actively contributing to the social fabric, because they were, and got to do things that were actively interesting them, and just stop doing those things if they stopped being interesting. Having that sort of self image as well as flexibility would be intensely motivating, at least for me, and help overcome a lot of the inertia and sensitivity.

    I genuinely do think a lot of the dysfunction we face from adhd has to do with how we structure our modern societies to optimize for efficiency and shareholder value over the wellbeing of the people. I mean when even non-adhd people are facing extreme burnout and excessive levels of stress, anxiety, and depression, what chance do we really have without meds?