Gentlethem

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Cake day: July 13th, 2023

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  • Forces, friend. Depression can cause this too, and of course it can be both -and often is-, but at least it’s much easier to get help with depression and usually the doctors want to rule that out first. Could also be ADHD. Some meds work for depression and ADHD. If you can, try to go and see a doctor. Ask a friend or a family member to help book the appointment and come with you to the clinic if it feels overwhelming. Even some help is better than none. If you have someone you could trust to help you with grocery shopping, that could make a huge difference. Some stores also do home deliveries - going to a grocery store is super draining and it’s difficult to think of anything to eat when you are overwhelmed.

    You’ve been through a lot, and the world around is crumbling, which really doesn’t make coping with personal hardship any easier. It’s okay to not make the best choices, for now you are surviving. You are doing your best!

    My easy to make safe foods are: noodle salad (rice noodles, lettuce, cucumber, carrot, cilantro, fried tofu with teriyaki sauce and some peanut sauce on top); “oven bread/pizza bread” or grilled sandwich, just put anything on them; tortillas (greens, some protein with spices, sauces); tortilla pizzas from leftover tortillas; raw porridge (basically muesli and oat milk, if there’s seeds or nuts or yoghurt then maybe those, let sit in the fridge overnight). When I was really burned out I used to just cook pasta and put instant sauce in the same pan, maybe add soy or beans or something.






  • I had a stupid ADHD day today. Super annoyed and worn out. Didn’t take enough meds in the morning so that probably made it even worse. The day was quiet at work so on the side I started a small art project I’d promised to do this week. Ended up multitasking the whole day, started the project from scratch like 4 times, no success. I could just use AI but I wanted to do the thing myself! Argh! Later went to gym, got the amebas so it was more mental struggle than physical exercise. Then went to grocery store and nearly had a panic attack after dissociating and feeling like losing sense of where I was. Ate unhealthy food because didn’t have energy to cook anything proper. Heart is pounding and body feels anxious even though mind is tired. Should go to bed soon. Hopefully tomorrow is better.






  • Good afternoon! I stayed at my friend’s last night, can’t remember when was the last time that happened, I wish the life was less draining so there would be more time and energy for friends. Anyway we went to a local shopping mall after breakfast to get lebanese bread and baklava and then from another middle-eastern store I got hummus and spices. I love how that shopping mall was just middle-eastern shops, place was vivid! On my way to train I grabbed a sub, but the thing was wrapped badly and fell apart when I tried to eat it and my hands smelled of sub for the whole way back. Someone was sitting next to me so I didn’t want to bother them to go to the toilet to wash up and just tried to manage with hand disinfectant, which obviously didn’t help. :')


  • Well of course! we have an emotional rollercoaster which you can’t get off, then we have a “what was I about to do and why is everyone angry at me” -memory game but we forgot the rules, also there are “social rules and regulations for people” and “small talk 101” puzzles but unfortunately some pieces were lost.