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Cake day: September 10th, 2025

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  • When it comes to mood, I honestly can’t tell what is because of HRT and what is because of changes in my life, it’s been far too dramatic lately :P

    Anyways, I do always look forward to injection day! And I love doing em and feel amazing afterwards! Tho it’s only a mood thing. And again, could just be the joy of continuing a ritual that brings me the desired changes in life. Either way I’m not complaining, either effect is 100% desirable in my opinion! ^^

    It’s interesting to me to compare my excitement around injections with my roommate, who sees it more like a chore I have to help remind her to do.




  • I’m not disagreeing with anything you’re saying, I just want to clarify, because I think we’re talking past each other. I tried my best to express that systemic issues are indeed far greater and not comparable to these interpersonal ones. The point I was making, was that dismissing their notion outright as some false flag operation is hurtful and only deepens the actual systemic issues by alienating potential allies.

    To explain why this dismissal matters, I will elaborate on my personal experience. This will be long and messy. If after this you’re still just restating the same point we both agree on, then it’s probably best to leave it there.

    Being bullied for being “girly” and “gay” was the least of my issues, I could have kept living in my assigned role, even if unhappy. My real issue was me developing a seething pathological hatred for men. Society treated me like a threat by default, because of my assigned gender, and eventually I started believing it. That I was a literal monster, that it wasn’t just some expectation, that there was something fundamentally wrong with me, something seriously broken in my head, simply for being born male. I was never misogynist, in fact I always looked up to women. And yet, this belief of inherent wrongness, was my hook into the right wing. Teen me didn’t believe in trans rights, because he believed all “males” must suffer. He didn’t help anyone suffering from injustice, because he believed he was so exceptionally wrong, that self erasure was the best possible outcome. He believed in a strict hierarchy where his mere existence was a death sentence. He was a hateful bigot that celebrated cruelty. He became a part of the problem he hated so much. And all that could have been prevented if only a single person didn’t dismiss him. That was all it took to eventually heal me, one person showing compassion.

    I sadly can’t say anything about racism, as that is simply not an area I have experience with, living in an extremely mono ethnic country (ofc as you mentioned, my ancestors might have a clue why that is). But it’s not hard to imagine someone developing similar beliefs when taught from a young age that some people are predisposed to hurt the things they care for.


  • I get your point, but your original comment didn’t specify “societal” or “structural.” Of course there’s no systemic misandry or “reverse racism”, and the issues you mentioned are far more serious, by several orders of magnitude. Still, misandry does exist on an interpersonal level, and it affects real people. Dismissing it outright feels insensitive, even if it’s not comparable in scale or impact.

    For example, toxic masculinity harms women much more deeply, but it also harms men. Acknowledging that helps men see that they don’t have to conform to abusive or repressive norms to be accepted. Rejecting that nuance risks alienating people who might otherwise support feminist goals.

    I was in that position once. In my teens, internalized misandry kept me stuck in the right-wing pipeline and made transitioning an absolute impossibility. I used to be an enabler, I’m ashamed of my past, almost as much as teen me was ashamed of existing. But it is real and could have been prevented.



  • No such claim was made. I highly doubt anybody casually has a LCD TV with a low enough resolution, and even if we play under a magnifying glass, LCD sub pixels will result in a drastically different image. It’s only “misleading” if you ignore the context, which is playing old games stretched over a fundamentally different (90% of the time FullHD) screen without any adjustments taking place.


  • Yup! Not many people know the impact of those filters tho. When I was emulating as a kid I hated CRT filters because I just saw them as noise (which many arguably are, it’s not trivial making a good CRT filter). Also if you used one of those pixel edge smoothing filters (like I used to) it would be even further from the intended look.

    Of course I’m not the fun police, I believe everyone should be free to run their games as they please. I just find it fascinating that there even is such a big difference!


  • If you look closely you can see it really does only bleed to the 2 pixels right next to it (horizontally, because that’s how the scan line travels). The dots you see don’t represent a single pixel. For example the hair, on the right in the sharp image you can see a single lone bright pixel for the hair, but on the CRT it’s 4 dots. I’m assuming 3 are probably the original pixel and the 4th is a bleed, but that’s just me guessing :P

    There are countless more examples online and youtube videos about it, highly recommend ^^


  • I don’t see any detail I can’t find in the sharp image. Except for the off screen stuff at the very top and bottom, since CRT pixels aren’t perfectly square and who ever made this image decided to fit by width. Nonetheless there are countless more example online and videos dedicated to this on youtube. Highly recommend :)



  • I feel ya. For me the eye opening moment was the full scale invasion of Ukraine. I grew up with the ideas of the unprecedented era of peace and human rights as a given hammered into my head, so I made it a moral duty to follow the war semi daily once it escalated. I live only one country over, so we’re next on putin’s campaign. And yet half the people here feel just fine with this arrangement. Our lackluster response, our bickering over the smallest things while this future defining horror show unfolds at our doorstep, it’s all quite sad.

    Anyways, since then I’ve been doing my best to understand people, to go out of my way and educate my self on what people are going through. I still have a lot to learn, but I refuse to stay ignorant, because it only leads to more pain.




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    3 months ago

    I appreciate the history lesson. I was always really confused by the term, but just accepted it as a silly random easy to remember word.

    I’d prefer if it wasn’t hidden in the comments tho. Presenting it this way is very much inviting conflict, considering most people have no clue.