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Cake day: June 10th, 2023
  • alyth@lemmy.worldtodepression_now!@lemmy.world•I still feel terrible CW: SuicideEnglish
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    4 days ago

    If your markdown files look anything as cool as your website once personalized I’m sure they will look absolutely wonderful :)) aw that’s a cute idea about the livestream!! i’m happy that badgers got the Reilyh badge 🪱🦡 (this badger is eating his favorite food, an earthworm) thank you for taking the time, too. very pleasant talking to you.

  • alyth@lemmy.worldtodepression_now!@lemmy.world•I still feel terrible CW: SuicideEnglish
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    5 days ago

    all my worries are on a piece of A4 paper.

    I like that image a lot! That’s a very beautiful way to think about it.

    I also like all the senses that are involved in it. There’s the visual creativity you have with the letters or ink, but also the smell of the paper, the sound of the pen scratching against the paper, and there’s very few distractions. I find it all very soothing. And of course the little doodles that live in their own little world in the margins. :)

    I wonder why they started doing that.

    I read about it in a big book about badgers at the library, but unfortunately I can’t remember if they theorized about the reasons. It’s one of those books you can only consult on premises though, so I don’t have it on me right now. The next time I’m there I’ll take another look at that section!

    Badgers can sometimes be quite tough indeed, especially male badgers can have brutal fights with each other. On the other hand they’ll sniff and cuddle and clean each other. Generally, they are rather shy. I was watching a badger webcam and the young cubs sleep in a little pile, it’s very cute…

    I’ll give you another fact I read from the book - Often badgers grow up and live in the sett they were born it. But over time, if a sett becomes too crowded, some will choose to leave their clan behind. They’ll live alone or try to be accepted into a different clan.

  • alyth@lemmy.worldtodepression_now!@lemmy.world•I still feel terrible CW: SuicideEnglish
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    5 days ago

    Thank you for your reply as well :) Freestyling it sounds really good. I hope you get something out of it whichever method you employ! You certainly seem to have a knack for it and I’m glad you see it too. Sometimes I write because it feels very relieving to write letters onto paper. Btw on a totally different note, did you know that badgers are known to live in groups, or as couples, or on their own? They have lots of different styles of living and it’s hypothesized they only learned to live in groups recently. This doesn’t really have anything to do with anything but I like badgers and hope you might appreciate a little badger fact!

  • alyth@lemmy.worldOPtoBooks@lemmy.world•Bored of Kafka on the Shore in the last quarter, is the ending worth continuing?
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    2 months ago

    Well, I had a 6 hour train ride ahead of me so I decided to finish the book and I’m glad I did.

    spoiler

    I still stand by my criticisms of the book, which are:

    • The cheap “deus ex machina” in the form of Colonel Sanders giving Hoshino all the answers, and Nakata always knowing where to go. It takes the suspense out the plot.
    • The overdone sex scenes. Of course there’s the motive of the Œdipus myth, but this goes overboard. Teenagers don’t usually end up sleeping with whatever woman crosses their path and I certainly don’t need elaborate descriptions given the age of Kafka and the young Ms. Saeki.

    Nakata’s passing surprised me. After Colonel Sanders’ appearance, I’d thought the characters are invinicible. But now Hoshino is thrown into cold water and we get some suspense back.

    I think the book gives a deserving end to both Nakata and Ms. Saeki. Until their meeting I hadn’t noticed just how strongly they complement each other with both of them being empty in their respective ways. Their end seems to match the theme of closing what was opened after they have undergone their respective journeys.

    But one of my favorite parts of the book is in the last chapter: When Sada asks Kafka if he’s seen the soldiers. Up until that point, I’d made a distinction between two worlds. There’s the real world where we have the library, the cafes, the motorway stops. Then there’s the dream world where Kafka meets young Ms. Saeki or where we find the village in the forest. Sada comes into the novel as a more or unless unrelated character dwelling in the real world. With this one simple question he provides (to my judgement at least) the first hard evidence that there is no such distinctions. Both the tangible and the intangible dreams are part of the same reality.

    Oh, and Hoshino is just delightful! I wish him well. :::spoiler–___

  • alyth@lemmy.worldtoLemmy Be Wholesome@lemmy.world•You really do
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    4 months ago

    This sounds like a positive message for people who question their self-worth. However, you will run into people in your life who try to take advantage of you because it’s easy. Loving everyone without questioning what you get out of the equation entails a risk of becoming a doormat. So please look out for yourself too.

  • alyth@lemmy.worldOPtodepression_now!@lemmy.world•Full CircleEnglish
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    1 year ago

    Hi Zerlyna!

    I really appreciate you commenting to check on me. It honestly made me feel very cared for and I’m immensely grateful - thank you!

    I’m very happy to report that life has gotten a lot better since I made this post.

    1. I stopped talking to and caring about my ex. When the relationship ended, I felt like I woke up in a new world which I hated at first, but now I’ve grown to love it.

    2. I made a very close friend. I used to think I could never trust anyone this deeply again. But it turns out I met a new person and we care about each other a lot. I really enjoy every exchange we have and I’m so glad that the feeling is mutual.

    3. I can hardly believe it - but I have a crush (a different person than 2). Like 2, she’s also someone I met recently and our daily conversations are so fun and effortless. I’m expecting a no when I ask her out, but that’s okay! Merely knowing that I’m capable of these feelings again shocked me.

    4. I’d been talking about interpersonal improvements so far, but for myself, I realized that I don’t care about spending the rest of my life here anymore. I need to go on an adventure. I feel like I’m finally able to focus on spending the time I’ve been given on this earth on my own journey.

    To summarize, I think I’m finally learning the art of letting go and I’m building up meaningful relationships.

    That’s enough yapping from me! I almost feel bad for talking this much about myself. I’m sorry to hear about your bad day. Please feel free to share if there is anything on your mind, you are always welcome to . If you’d rather not, that’s just as fine and I genuinely hope that positive things are just around the corner for you too. Thanks again for your check-in and good wishes, I genuinely appreciate you a lot and wish you just the same.