CW: Suicide, Involuntary institutionalization
I had the shower thought today after thinking about involuntary institutionalization that in the US a lot of this mental health awareness is just something they do to keep people from killing themselves. If I call the national suicide hotline they’ll send some cops to my door that may kill me instead, but they may also just take me to the hospital where I’m then locked up and forbidden from many basic rights until they “fix” me. The time I voluntary had myself committed was one of the worst things I ever did and I still carry trauma from it a decade later.
I remember replaying it a few years later after its hayday and my god it was actually painful to play for extended periods of time, open the doors mash your thumb, kill an elite enemy, mash your thumb, watch a cutscene, mash your thumb. It’s why whenever I can these days I just go to the accessibility options and turn on hold rather than mash.