

I had that too, I also just didn’t know just how badly I wanted to be a girl until I met a really good friend who I learned was trans (and was also in the right state of mind not to immediately push her away), questioned my own gender, then experimented with she/her pronouns on myself and learned yup totally want to be a girl, really badly too. I also doubted myself a bit since I’d heard that you need dysphoria, but that didn’t last long because I realized my chest dysphoria very soon after that.
I have doubts of how possible it is to accidentally fake being trans. Back in my darker days when I hug out with terrible people (and also was one) I had friends who attempted to do just that to “infiltrate trans groups” and for almost every one of them it backfired and they ended up coming out as trans in one way or another.
So I think it’s more likely to fake being cis than to fake being trans.