• Master@lemm.eeEnglish
    261·
    1 day ago

    Spent a year and a half unemployed and it was the best time of my life. The only part that sucked was the looking and interviewing for jobs part.

    • pyre@lemmy.world
      391·
      1 day ago

      nope. if I had infinite money I could enjoy the rest of my life being unemployed. that’s not doing nothing mind you, just nothing for money. it’s incredible how much employment hampers creativity and, funnily enough, productivity.

    • MelodiousFunk@slrpnk.net
      14·
      1 day ago

      I dunno, this is the happiest I’ve been in decades.* If it weren’t for the whole “you need to prove you’re allowed to exist by giving us money every month for the rest of your life” thing, I’d be pretty content.

      \*

      Granted, I’ve been in intensive therapy for almost a year and still suffer from debilitating depression (amongst other various maladies), so “happy” is a very relative term. Existence is hell.

        • MelodiousFunk@slrpnk.net
          3·
          1 day ago

          It’s on the short list of next steps, but the (legal) trial is the next state over. So I get to try magic magnets and homeopathic ketamine first. Wheeeee.

            • MelodiousFunk@slrpnk.net
              1·
              11 hours ago

              Nice! I’m kind of wondering what kinds of effects any of this will have on me. They can’t cure material circumstances. So are they just going to let me see more clearly how utterly fucked I am? Expose some novel pathway for running away? It’s hard to imagine feeling anything but objectively depressed and/or rage.

              • Anatares@lemmynsfw.com
                1·
                9 hours ago

                They won’t do anything if you don’t put in the work. They’ll give you a 4-6 hour experience of access to your emotions, and which ones are often most affected by set and setting. It’s basically breaking down the walls between you and your emotional self.

                It mostly gives you a break, and shows you a goal. So putting in the work is a matter of taking from that experience and changing your life/behavior to start breaking down the emotional walls now that you know what emotions actually feel like.

                It’s rarely one and done and depression is complex. Sometimes you need a reminder as well. You’ll sill need to change your neuro-chemical condition and literal brain structure. That could be simply behavioral, sometimes psychological, and sometimes it’s hard wired.

                In all cases progress is slow. Getting better takes years and you’re not looking for perfect here. There is no failure, feeling like your back pedaling can often be part of growth.

                Also don’t skip regular therapy as long as you can afford it, just find a therapist you like. They’re professionals. They won’t be offended if you want to switch. If they are then they’re a shit therapist and run even faster.