I’m questionning and told a fren. I didn’t want to talk about it but we kept going around it while talking about my recent life so I told him. He said “woaaah i never thought” and everytime someone says that it hurts a bit because the road seems soooo long .-.

He was really nice about it tho

My roomates are very supportive too but acted awkward at first

for the first time in about a year, actually relatively normal! I started hrt a week ago and haven’t had any severe suicidal ideation nor self harmed since I started, which is the longest I’ve been in a year. and I’ll be at open sauce, a science convention in about two weeks. so things are actually kinda going well :)

I read “Citrus” this week, and… I’m exhausted from all the feels. For such a short series it really packs a punch.

Need… more… yuri…

Real, real bad. Spiraling bad. No risk of harm, but I’m in a dark place.

Good but exhausting. Had some social stuff and on Thursday I took a day off to do all my doctor’s appointments. Laser, new hormone prescription and I had to get a document for a minor correction on my nose job, that’s coming up on the 15th. The laser lady complimented my outfit which felt great! It’s a co-ord with red and white stripes :) She also said she estimates 2-3 more sessions until my facial hair is completely gone, which isn’t too bad.

It was also Pride weekend this week in my city, I went to the smaller dyke march on Saturday and skipped the larger event on Sunday due to bad weather and not wanting to feel overwhelmed by so many people. Good decision, had a great time and ran into some people I knew. Also, I was surprised by the presence of trans people & flags at the dyke march, what a wonderful sight.

Difficult and traumatising with some good bits inbetween.