for the first time in about a year, actually relatively normal! I started hrt a week ago and haven’t had any severe suicidal ideation nor self harmed since I started, which is the longest I’ve been in a year. and I’ll be at open sauce, a science convention in about two weeks. so things are actually kinda going well :)

here’s an excerpt from the Open Gate Labs (diy hrt provider) site for anyone interested in homebrewing diy:

It does not take a chemist to make gel, sublingual or even injections small scale for personal use or to distribute locally. And that’s what you should learn to do. I won’t hold your hand throughout the entire process, but if you’re able to do some research on your own it’s not super difficult to do.

A few hundred dollars is all you need to get started, you’ll be doing yourself a favor and strengthening the decentralized flow of life saving medication that it seems like endless people want gone.

Known homebrewers are not going to be around forever. New people may be good, new people may be bad, what will you be? Please do what you can to support the DIY community.

link to their site

diy is genuinely life saving for many people. of course, remember that there are risks present when purchasing and using home brewed hrt, and more when making it yourself, but with enough research and caution it’s overall quite safe.

samsies!! i have so many of the traits, i might be cooked :3

ik this is really old but i literally just saved the uncensored version of the background gif like yesterday… am i gay?

here’s another one for anyone interested, it’s definitely a very different genre though

https://youtu.be/TXfJVNqaHiM

that’s totally a fair point, it’s definitely not for everyone. but I would like to point out that how Miku sounds depends heavily on the composer and how they tune her, so while a lot of her music falls into that category, alot of it doesnt. she is essentially an instrument after all.

mizuki wallpaper!! bocchi wallpaper!! Miku wallpaper!! it’s all so perfect, you have a sick setup :3

It’s never been confirmed that they are the same person, and they both operate as if they are completely separate people. Lina goes by she/her on stream as well.

God I hate living in Utah.

As a high schooler in Utah, this is true. There’s essentially zero mention of the community even existing, except for certain classes where it inevitably comes up (like current issues), and even then only certain teachers will approach those topics, and it’s definitely not part of their curriculum.

this looks amazing!! I might have to make this into some stickers :3

I volunteered to help out with a trans rights rally. And accidentally became the leader for my state, because nobody else was volunteering. So yeah, now I’m stressed out of my mind getting permits, local orgs to help and more. But at least it’s for a good cause I care deeply about.

panic!(“FUCK”);

anyone else really starting to wonder how much longer they’ll last in this god forsaken country?

no wonder I run Debian :3

how do I permanently preserve someone else’s comment?

that’s probably more accurate, I probably just need to find a better therapist

I had a therapist that eventually deemed me too dangerous to myself to be in their care, so she upgraded me to super-therapy where I have to go like 9 hours a week and work with a group and like 5 therapists but I still don’t get much value out of it :c so yeah, therapy definitely isn’t for everyone