I HATE IT I HATE IT I HATE IT SO MUCH

Literally have no energy to even cry after crying so much. Genuinely need some comfort and support. I want someone to talk to who understands.

21f I’ve been dealing with this horrible abdominal pain for about 4 days now and it’s really wearing me down. I’m on meds for it so that helps quite a lot. The pain sits mostly around my belly button area and nearby. It constantly hurts, and then it suddenly spikes into cramping or stabbing gut pain whenever it wants to. My appetite is low, I feel nauseous, and without pain meds I honestly can’t manage the day.

I had an ultrasound and blood work done earlier this week. Nothing serious showed up so they’ve ruled out anything like appendicitis or anything, but the moment they pressed the probe on my abdomen I almost jumped. It hurt so badly that the whole thing stressed me out more because I still don’t understand what’s going on inside my belly.

Then this morning (nighttime here btw), I was sitting on the floor checking something in the lowest drawer. When I tried to stand up, I got this sudden, really sharp pang in my gut, lost my balance, and ended up falling forward straight onto the wooden bedpost. It hit me right in the stomach and the impact felt like it actually sank into my abdomen. It knocked the literal life out of me and I threw up after.

Now the area on my stomach where I hit is sore and even feels bruised. Although it’s most likely nothing severe like internal bleeding, but it hurts when I touch it, when I stretch, or even when I flex my abdominal muscles. But my original belly pain is still there too, so everything feels mixed together. I’m getting random throbbing sensations in my gut and sometimes that awful empty “extreme hunger” type pain even when I’m not hungry at all. My whole abdomen feels drained, my body feels weak, and I’m honestly exhausted. I’m tired, I want to cry and cry but no energy for that as well. I just want this to end. I feel so confused and helpless.