Heya!
I’ve recently realised that I’m not as cis as I thought. It’s amazing, magnificent, and terrifying.
It’s crazy how I look back and I see all the signs, and why I suppressed them, and still am to large degree.
Truly, like a left/right brain split. Where I do the gayest shit, but my mind is just like, yeah I’m just a bit different, I just have different taste, etc.
Well, now it’s leaking like crazy, even just walking the streets I get the weirdest sensations.
And I’m so excited to get a few wigs with friends and try them on with different styles. Thinking of trying something quite feminine and also more androgynous. I’ve done this multiple times in the past, but always for a different reason, and always enjoyed it. The first time I even won a prize for best entertainment when I cross-dressed. But this time, it’s about identity, and I have quite a few things in mind.
I’m really not sure yet what my gender identity currently is. But gender-fluid seems the best match. I’m happy in my cis male body (so far). but I love my feminine side too. When I feel super free I switch between the two on a whim, or become a mix of both and idk. But it’s still in the background somewhere most of the time. Especially currently with mind-numbing pain, it’s hard to explore myself. Which is why some optical help with a wig and such should help!
Also a friend wants to do expressive dance with me, which seems super cool as well.
Sorry for the wall-of-text. I hope it’s alright to share my excitement here. I tried to register on a well-known forum, but got banned upon completing registration, probably because of my VPN.
Thanks for reading and wish y’all well.


Your post made me feel better, it really helped to read something positive outside the binary right now. Thanks for sharing!
And don’t worry about the post length. It takes as many words as it takes. And the post reads well and isn’t that long anyway.
Really, really happy to hear! :)
And thank you too!