When you tell people you have OCD they think your a neat freak or something. No! I live in near constant dread and anxiety from everything from “will eating this bread kill me?” to vile and disturbing shit that I don’t feel comfortable sharing with to anyone other than a therapist. People don’t understand. They don’t see how it eats away at you. Doubting who you are or why you do the things you do, doubting what you know to be true, constantly second guessing yourself. It’s absolute hell. I wouldn’t wish this on anyone. I’m not posting this for sympathy. More so curious if anyone can relate. Misery loves company I guess.
My wife has OCD but hers manifests itself as a ton of invisible rules that only she knows in every situation and if those rules are broken she immediately enters fight or flight mode.
Yeah, I know what that’s like. I hope she’s managing it well.
Sounds like we have the same diagnosis. Had no idea for the longest time because I thought OCD only described compulsive physical behavior like hand washing and light switches. But nope, thoughts count behavior, too.
I don’t have any words of encouragement or anything but I get your struggle. I see you.
Thank you. I hope you’re doing well.
