Sorry for the late update. Was in a bad mental state last night. I think this will be the last edit.
Before you say anything, while you might think this isn’t an unlicensed game, technically since there’s no encompassing and enforced licensing system on the PC, all PC games are unlicensed. 
Under Siege is a PC game released in 2004/2005 that tells the story of a Palestinian family during the Second Intifada. Yeah it isn’t exactly an obscure game, but I wanted to end my series with a game about shooting fascists rather than interacting with their underbaked brainworms. Unfortunately I couldn’t get it to work so I have no personal opinions about the game itself.
The game can be downloaded here https://www.myabandonware.com/game/under-siege-gcg
Here’s a few bonus NES games:
MiG-29: Soviet Fighter: You play as a Soviet pilot on a mission to defeat the World Terrorist Army. Plays a lot like Afterbuner
Tunnel War: A action video game adaptation of a 1965 Chinese film about a small village building a tunnel network to defend against a Japanese invasion during the Second Sino-Japanese War
Allied Death Squad: A port of the PC title “Commandos: Behind Enemy Lines”, it’s an action strategy game where you play as allied soldiers killing nazis and escaping their prison
Lin Zexu - No Smoking:
A beat-em-up about enforcing China’s opium ban
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jenny talls and hormones
My balls ache which is freaking me out cause the last time I remember this happen was when they were shutting down/atrophying due to anti androgens. I did stop taking my spiro when my last prescription ran out because I was hoping that valerate injections would just suppress stuff on its own but now I’m a little scared… And I put off scheduling a follow-up with the doctor who prescribes me my HRT for silly reasons
Aghhh
I really hope I blossom in 2-3 years (total) hrt or I am genuinely going to give up. I’m not going to be able to accept not. So like 1-2 more years for things to fall in place and actually look decent and everything.
Congratulations to all the Spain lovers and Argentina haters in the comm!
dysphoria
I can’t believe the way dysphoria has just taken me. It’s constant. Literally constant suffering. I can’t imagine a life without/outside of it. I should be having fun. I am not. My body feels like it’s on fire. It’s ruined my life and is here to stay. Idk what to do or say anymore.
Had coffee, now I feel like I need a nap. Huh.
Why is the feeling of tired and the feeling of needing to be cuddled the same thing
aaa the fursuit head i’m carving is in the phase where i’m feeling like it’s looking bad no matter what i do… why is symmetry so mean
Women not avoiding me in public spaces has got to be a sign that I’m at least like … 10% passing now, right?
Yeah my women coworkers have gotten a lot more touchy since I came out? Just elbow, shoulder, knee touches to be reassuring, v sweet. It’s little things like that that give me the most validation, like huh, I really don’t read as a man to yall :)
Same, it’s little things like this that only happened between women and I had previously only ever observed that are super affirming. Other little things women have been doing that lift my spirits:
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talking to me in the bathroom about my purse, outfit, or makeup
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smiling at me when we pass in the street (vs. previously trying not to make eye contact)
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(at work) being much more open and friendly. all my work friends are women lol
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I think a lot of us think of passing as going full stealth immediately. But there’s so many other stages of positive ways people can respond to you.
As soon as I started girlmode-ing in public most women were just way more relaxed around me. Like they knew I was a trans woman and that meant I’m not threatening/more scared than them.
Then I found there was the stage where I unambiguously read as intentionally presenting female, so I stopped getting gendered with masculine terms by random men and women. Often de-gendered, but lots of times where a random man might be like “Hey [colleauge] can you come help this lady out?” etc
Now that I’m getting this stage where there’s just enough between my long hair, smooth face and increasingly bigger breasts day by day, that some people just think I’m an unusually tall lady. Which is wild.
You are, at least, no longer reading as a man if that’s the case. Even if you don’t pass, you’re still a woman. Never forget that “passing” just means conforming to an extremely narrow set of ever-shifting standards maintained by white, cishet patriarchy. Tons of cis women get “transvestigated” because they don’t conform, too. That said, it’s nice when you start getting women looking at you and talking to you like one of their own. It’s not so much about passing but showing that you are rejecting masculinity and its privileges that sparks the change, imo.
Kinda scary tbh
Spending a whole day girlmoding makes me kinda scared. This is all so real. Reminds me of when I first made the descision to inject hormones. I was scared out of my mind. But look at it now, it’s a routine.
Ughhhhhhh…
I’m moving in to the new apartment starting tomorrow and Im really not having it today. Almost nothing is boxed up, everything is a mess, and I’m trying to guide my roomate-to-be though a lot of stuff because this is her first time doing any of it. I’m feeling awfully depressed, completely listless, and utterly trapped in place.
Actually kinda love when people pick apart my features and tell me what’s good
Let’s see how well it works
Blushing at the table right now
more like BlushingEggnog am i right?
that’s very cute and I’m happy for you
:cat-trans: thank you Gender.
I love how this 4rth novel starts referring to the trans character with female pronouns upon their transitioning but I know that this translator is incompetent af and keeps switching pronouns of everybody to the point of sheer confusion. I’m not entirely sure if the original mandarin text actually uses female pronouns or if this translator has mistranslated again.
How could I forget to inform this to the mega?
I purchased 2 very cute pieces of clothing. 1 top, and one which is a 1 piece skirt+office sleeveless shirt.
Unfortunately the skirt doesn’t have pockets so fuck me I guess. I gotta go buy a purse too now.
And I need a tip. What kinda footwear goes with such drip? Flip flops? Sandals? Plain shoes I think don’t quite work.
You could probably get away with most shoes, although for an office style look you’d probably want to avoid sneakers/trainers.
I will take that into consideration. Thank you John Brown 🙏
Purses are fucking incredible. I was carrying around so much shit in my pockets that it looked cartoonish, highly recommend. Plus a lot of bags are ambiguously gendered nowadays if that matters to you.
As for shoes, still don’t know. sorry :(
Tbh while I get why the lack of pockets annoys people I far prefer purses, I love having my phone, wallet, some pens, an entire painting set, and a journal on me at all times. Can’t fit all that in pockets unless you have extra big ones
For shoes: men’s style dress shoes or Mary Janes imo, other kinds of heel can work too but MJs are pretty versatile and comfy. Make sure you’re wearing pantyhose with it if you really want to complete an office worker look. Unless I’m misunderstanding what you meant by office shirt and it’s just a button down with a non-office-y skirt thing going on
I never considered the stocking. That will help. Thanks. The outfit looks like this:
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God lord I’d do anything to look like a woman. To look like that. Seeing cute outfits and shit. Swim suits. Waists. Just looking at how women dress vs men. God fuck my chud life.
Wish I knew how humiliating dressing as a woman would be when I look like this.
