“a CPAP machine”

Honestly, dawg, take this seriously because the hardest part is going to sleep the first few times to it and acclimating to it

I uhhh

never managed to sleep with mine

Ever

Couldn’t do it for some reason

I wish I had something to help knock me out so I could fall asleep

Honestly, I probably would have needed anasthesia to have made me sleep with that thing on

Also:

Do not just “settle” when it comes to a CPAP machine.

Find the right mask (especially the right mask size so it doesn’t fall off because mine certainly kept falling off despite the Velcro)

Honestly, maybe even get accessories to help make it manageable (I got a cover for my mask when I used one which did somewhat help keep the mask and its implements together, even if I couldn’t fall asleep with a CPAP machine in the end)

If you have facial hair, probably best to shave more often so you’re not always itching (I literally use a rare seven-blade just to get it done quickly lol)

Oh

Consider whether you’re a side sleeper or stomach sleep or even some weird combination (I call them diagonal sleepers lol)

For example, I can’t fucking breathe when I am laying on my back. Holy shit, it hurts, even.

Frankly, even a good mattress might be useful here, not a cheap one (Purple Mattress, generally a hybrid one, might work for you as it does most people, but again, consider your sleep position)

Also also:

“They’re also referring me to a sleep therapist to help me with falling asleep. They were kind of light on the details, but if there’s a chance it could work, I’m happy to try it.”

Honestly, I should have one by now, that may have made the difference.

It takes 3, maybe 4 hours, for me to go to sleep (so I end up retiring early during the day)

It’s a hassle but at least I am mostly sleeping now (I am so glad I am weaning off caffeine now, holy shit). Oh, and sleeping the full eight hours generally. Before, I sometimes didn’t sleep at all. Ignoring the advice to “just have caffeine no later than 12:00 PM or 2:00 PM” was honestly what I needed (I have been having caffeine very early in the morning, generally around 6:00 AM or even 5:00 AM and it fucking fixes a lot)

Frankly, I may go down to zero or just eventually have one cup of tea and no more during the morning.

Also also also

Blackout curtains. Get 'em. They are a godsend.

Also also also also

Acoustic paneling. Even better in the long run than the blackout curtains.

Ummm…

That’s it tbh

I am Autistic and that’s why I initially did a sleep study

The, erm, sleep specialist did not fill me with confidence lol

I will double-check in Spain.

This is a huge surprise for me. I barely snore and I never wake up gasping for air, at least not enough that I’m consciously aware of it.

I guess it can be hard to recognize on your own?

At any rate, hope the treatment helps you!

Yeah, the “snoring means you have sleep apnea” thing is overrated.

Frankly, I may do (another) sleep study when I get to Spain.

I think the results I got from my last one were faulty.

Also… I slept only two hours (not even) during the actual study bwahahahahahaha

I have an anti-doomscrolling app now, ngl (shit works for what it works so that’s good)

I wish it would rain here. It’s almost 37 degrees Celsius here.

ZOMG

Congratulations!

It was a good book, but I was disappointed when I read it.

FYI, I wanted to read it since around 2008. I remember looking on Amazon books pages for books to read about history and I saw that book and the blurb entranced me and lighted a fury in me (in a good way) I had always had about white people in general.

However, when I read it for the first time (years later), I was disappointed because it was stuff that I knew about, stuff that even the teachers in my high school and college talked about, and the conclusion of the book was stuff I had already seen or read about before.

Tbf though, the book was written in 1979 and published around 1982, afaik, so it was probably a big deal for those that grew up with it.

I love how MAGA coms and ACP folks hate it though lol

At the end of the day, it is just one book out of many and you can find plenty that discusses the subject matter in more detail and more angles nowadays; i kinda just see it as a litmus test to check if someone is an ACP dumbass or not, idk lol

but yeah, I hated white people growing up

looking back, i disagree with the book more now because the organizations it criticized are ones that I now respect a lot more now, given what I know now, especially since I was on the inside

but eh, it’s a good introduction to big subject matter for some people, if nothing else; not everyone knows the subject and not every high school or college professor will always go into, say, the war in the Philippines during the turn into the twentieth century.

tl;dr I liked it and it was good, just kinda overrated lol

We should beat them up

Well

At least they killed Charlie Kirk

A lot of the things you mentioned serve as a way to keep the status quo in place, hence why they are not frowned upon. This extends to animal abuse as well. We abuse and kill trillions of animals on a yearly basis for our palate pleasure, often in horrific ways. But put a thousand pigs with the cognitive ability of a 4 year old in a gas chamber and nobody cares. Put a dog in a gas chamber and you’ll be killed yourself by an angry mob. It’s the hypocrisy and cognitive dissonance to serve the status quo. Animal abuse is highly normal in this society even though we say it is not.

You can also see this in serial killers as well. Serial killers who kill pretty, young white women are highlighted. Serial killers who kill black or trans or gay people or sex workers are often ignored for a very long time or mever found at all. Because this society deems it normal not to care about these victims.

I think the fascination with serial killers in american culture is probably a coping mechanism. The people who are most obsessed with serial killers are probably scratching the itch in their mind screaming “the entire society is built on murder” but they just can’t quite bring it together.

It’s simply the lower classes’ attempt to mimick the dominant structures (i.e. family, ideas) that are natural in class society. Obviously… this fails in regards to some things because they do not have the material or relations needed. So you get fucking serial killers, rapists, corruption, etc. Let alone the conditions too.

There’s nothing anomalous about them. And then it becomes odd to say when a serial killer “blended” in that they must of “manipulated” people. Like maybe they’re not good at “manipulating”, rather they’re just good at what society demands of people and fulfills that role well?

I agree. The manipulation capability of serial killers gets dramatically overrated/mythologized. It’s more that they take advantage of obvious vulnerabilities and power imbalances in a pathologically anti-social system that barely deserves to be called a society. And their lack of empathy combined with murderous desires (which is far more easily formed/nurtured within such a violent system) makes it very easy for them to decide that taking advantage of these things is a good plan. Some of them are the ones in uniform.

Hell, I recall a story of one serial killer case that a journalist managed to solve like decades(? not certain of the timeline offhand) later and it turned out they had been a cop.

Liquidate the kulaks

The narration is relaxed but the game itself is creepy. I’ve fallen asleep to this one many times by now.

https://youtu.be/TMrL8nKJGQw

I just started playing the Deadspace remake. There’s a few little changes to the original that I am not a fan of(they give you a rifle near the beginning that ruins the “Im a space engineer with scifi construction tools fighting mutant zombies in space” vibe) but the jump scares are still there.