Like if you’re afraid a convenience store will be robbed but you go there every day. Or you’re afraid of sidewalk cracks but walk everywhere.
I refuse to be homeless. I’ve always been telling myself that the day I become homeless and so many bills pile up, is the day I truly die. I’m pretty resourceful, but there’s not an awful lot that I can think of as there to do if I become homeless, other than become a petty criminal, but then I’d only be wasting time in jail and being treated like a nobody in the justice system.
I’m constantly afraid that I’ll get fired. Not for anything in particular, just that it’ll happen randomly and without notice… which has happened to me several times over the last decade or so. I hate living in an ‘at will’ state.
Other drivers. For god sakes. I live in the Washington DC/Baltimore MD area and while driving around here has always been a lot like Death Race 2000, it has gotten absolutely insane since covid.
Traffic signs are clearly just suggestions, people have no issues just blocking the thruways in parking lots. At least once a week I will just barely miss being in a fender bender.
That people are only pretending to be nice to me but are secretly mad at me behind my back.
I went through an incident where the people I thought were my closest friends, weren’t, and it fucked me up pretty bad.
Sorry.
Being assaulted or even murdered.
I regularly live with this fear to the point that I don’t leave the house by myself.
Getting hit by a car or stabbed by a methhead. Or getting hit by a car driven by a methhead who then gets out and stabs me.
That someone is mad at me and I don’t even know I’ve wronged them.
what if the wrong you did them was completely fictional and a fantasy in their head?
That I’ve forgotten some critical information that will completely ruin things for me in the future. E.g. going to an exam without my student ID. Forgetting I have urgent surgery today. Etc. The worst part is I’m usually right lol my memory is extremely bad
I forgot I had a meeting with my boss on a Monday a few weeks back and it almost cost me my job.
Ugh, I hate that forgetful feeling.
Disappointing others.
I’m agoraphobic. It’s practically impossible living your life without leaving your house though.
Even taking out the trash or checking my mailbox can be an ordeal. I’d much rather have a regular phobia, like spiders, snakes, clowns, or something easier to avoid.
The two most dangerous hours a day are going to and from work. I’m just one screwed up human away from death every day. Chances are there are a lot of them that are screwed up.
I speak about half an hour before I think. I’ve fucked up more times than I care to count doing this.
that the constant anxiety and panic attacks are just permanent now, and I will keep losing my grip until I’m living curled up in the fetal position as everything goes to literal shit around me
Hang in there, pal! I hope you can find something that helps
Getting attacked by a crazy druggie.
I dont care how much it costs I just need a political party to come up with a solution for this shit. I’m down for any solution at this point.
That I am going to lose my fucking mind. I have untreated psychiatric issues so it’s not only possible but at some point probable. Every day feels like a roll of the dice but I white knuckle through.
