Nice one, what you did there was remove the idea of death from a future abstraction that could happen at any second and moved it into the present moment which made you aware of the lack of imminent present danger, calming your anxiety.
It’s kind of a rough and ready but, respectable go at unguided Zen. Mindfulness is just the parts of Zen that are backed by imperial evidence, repackaged for a western audience.
We don’t have the right word for it in English. It’s not a religion and it’s not really a philosophy either, in the way we mean it here. It’s not a modle to understand the world or a moral framework to be put to the test etc. It’s by far the closest word though.
It’s kind of a way of trying to experience the life, be more present and more spontaneous. The Spiritual stuff isn’t meant to be taken even slightly literally but, as representations of things.
I think you might find even more peace adding in some of that.
Thats crazy because rich people keep telling me low tax on them funds growth and helps everyone.
I mean, why would rich people lie?