Etran de L’Aïr - Imouha
The Dream Academy - Please, Please, Please Let Me Get What I Want
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Methuselah - The worlds oldest tree, 4,850 years old
https://www.theguardian.com/environment/2020/aug/02/the-methuselah-tree-and-the-secrets-of-earths-oldest-organisms
Babs - Raw Dawg Comics
https://www.reddit.com/r/rawdawgcomics/comments/1l04trg/queen/
Ballet Dancers in the Wings - Edgar Degas, c. 1890s
https://www.slam.org/collection/objects/19840/
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my transition is about a year and a half old now
i still never learned how to do my makeup
I know I’m usually in here being dorky and silly but
suicidal thoughts
I really can’t think of any reasons outside how it would affect the people I care about to not end it.
i think waking up in the morning is good now. i feel great and apparently i am not just manic
cw small amount of blood (vampire)
The need to be someone’s extremely cuddly gf
horny
“i’m not that into men” i think to myself having to stop thinking about boys for 10 seconds because if i keep thinking about how kissable they are then my computer mouse is going to shatter from how hard i’ve been gripping it
therapy questions
Anyone here exactly know if there is a difference between psychiatrist and therapist?
And also, what exactly should I tell my GP when I go there? I want to see a therapist, but what kind of therapist, and what exactly would the goal be?
I didn’t really think about this, I just had the vague idea “stop being useless and go to therapy” then clicked a button.
The whole reason I want a therapist is that I want to the voices in my head to stop telling me to die, but saying that to my GP will make him think I am joking or crazy. And I don’t want to tell my GP that I am suicidal cause that makes it sound worse than it is.
I’m positively reminiscing back to the time when I lived in a slum house, renting a 9 m^2 room from a crime lord. I looked homeless, and legally speaking, I was homeless, since I wasn’t allowed tk register my address.
It was a fun time. I was in the first year of my bachelor. I was young. I tried things. I even had hope! Crazy isn’t it that my current standard of novelty is to change my walking route or ride a bike. I used to ride my bike between cities back then! Now I touch the poor thing once every 2 months.
Also, funnily enough, I dressed more girly back then. I even experimented with makeup.
Now, I think about how few friends I truly have left. I only have 2 people I talk to on an occasional basis. Did you know, I can count the average number of sentences I speak per week on my hands?
And do you know why that piece of my soul died? It’s because after I ran away from the crime lord, the only place I could find a room in is about 3 hours by train (there are many complications involved in why it takes me that long). I’m completely isolated from other people. I spoke 2 sentences this whole week to another person! And it was a question to a professor.
I am quite literally a displaced proletariat migrant
workerstudent. I am going into debt in order to make myself more useful to master. I am a dog that plays tricks for the master, and then I give the master a treat if I do it right. And of course I have to do it right, cause if I don’t, I get thrown away.Perhaps it is precisely because I live the life of such a miserable dog that I also behave like one. Materialism etc bottom text. You know the drill.
oh no transphobia
So I was walking today in an ostensibly progressive part of the city, looking like a pop punk princess in stunning grey and black plaid dress, with metallic purple lipstick and cool high tops.
A drunk 20-30 something at an outdoor bar with his friends made eye contact with me and as I walked past he said “what the fuck! did you see that?” I was already well past so I didn’t hear anymore
And like that sucked. But it didn’t suck as much as I thought it would. Like worrying a slap would be a killer one-hit punch my whole life.
Shoe company. Makes exclusively unisex shoes. In rainbow patterns. Website says they are LGBT friendly.
Women’s sizes stop at 12/44.5…
45 up only in men’s section.
Oh I’m making this someone’s problem.
You will all be happy to know that I made an appointment with my GP to get psychiatric help. I have made no lies, no delays this time. Just an appointment.
Choosing to do this was the hard part. Showing up to the appointment will be easy. I have a major fear of disappointing authority figures.
After that, it’s smooth sailing into the process of being in a waiting list for multiple years.
cw:sui
But yeah, the “end yourself” thoughts are getting too strong lately. Ain’t no denying it. It’s gotten bad, and I’m tired of making excuses like “what if I’m just being a bktch or am overreacting or misinterpreting” or fucking whatever the hell. All garbage. If I really don’t need the help so what, it would just be a small wastage of time in the grand scheme of things.
But I’ve grown to hate making excuses and feeling sorry for myself. I’m not dead yet, so why do I lollygag like I am?
They are calling the crystals defective and labeling all its “flaws”! Leave the crystal alone! Poor thing is already a low energy state. If you create even more negative energy, it will become cold and distant.
