definitely not just uploading a picture of one of my plants because i forgot about this mega
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I cut my own hair super cute and my mom didn’t like it lol. My dad screamed at the walls like I had cut someone else’s hair without their permission. I’m just happy I made them mad, though. I love being myself despite what they want or think about
Thinking about dating in general and like growing up it’s been not really something I did and when I saw it through others it’s seemed rocky at best. My own parents relationship is loving but the barely talk sometimes, what I got with my gf is more deeper idk. I can spend all day talking to her confiding things I never could before. Overall it’s been great dating someone and that someone becoming your best friend 😊
Today ended up being pretty good. Bit vaguely sad/emotional but it’s over some bullshit not depression.
One week until vacation. Just have to lock it in for one week.
they sent me lewd pics chat 😳
two years on estrogen today
My mega’s coming up already and I haven’t chosen a topic yet. I was thinking of doing a set over a week like the recent corvid post. Whatchu all think about these?
- My favorite flowers
- Miniature animals
- Women vg composers
- Unlicensed political/propaganda console games from 80s to 90s
- Throwback to my past by listing favorite beers
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depression, dysphoria, misery, transphobia
Have felt like complete shit. Literally everything about my situation is miserable. My body is disgusting. I don’t feel like the maybe 10 people I know and like, care to talk to me as much as I do them. I don’t resent them or anything. Its just really sad. Everyone has their own stuff going on. I just wish they liked spending time with me as much as I like them I suppose.
The world is just cruel. I do not want to go out there and be a part of it. I don’t really know what I want to do. Probably just not be here anymore, I think locking myself in an apartment or something would also suck.
Upset about sex and relationships. Mostly the lack of. But also bottom dysphoria. And general dysphoria. I don’t really have hope for it. idk how ANY of that is supposed to work with me like this.
I want all of this to go away. I would like to float away. I am not getting out what I want. Life is not so great. And this is all there is. How intrinsically depressing.
It feels a bit like I stumbled across something not meant for me. Everyone else is living it up and having a great time. They are so fundamentally different from me. I am a stranger standing awkwardly at a party. Everyone else knows each other and is having a great time, and here I am. Alone, miserable, and different. Also 80% of the party hates me and actively supports my suffering.
I’m sorry for posting like this again.
5 months in and shit still feels magical, date night we watched a movie called past lives about the what could have beens and yeah I get it. I had a lot of thoughts of what didn’t work or what could have happened if I tried but after talking about whale penis and laughing at cuckholdry well I thank Marx we found each other 😊
Finished season 1 of severance, love the show btw, and started watching what I thought was season 2 episode one. Watched like 5 minutes and thought, huh, this really does not seem to mesh with what just happened. Where is the answer to the cliffhanger?
I was watching episode like 7. Whoops.
Getting sir’d in multiple languages 《_♧__♧》
Little girl complimented my bracelet at the store :)
dressed up to go out. good vibes overall, nothing major really; but afterwards when walking away with some women i didn’t know, a guy rolled his window down to catcall them and we all just collectively rolled our eyes. very nice moment of shared femininity although i’m still having trouble fucking Talking rather than just becoming quiet when in public as a woman
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I am terrified of trying to find a full time job in my new state. I don’t know how and have no confidence in my ability to do it. And its obviously the most important thing right now. Well, once we move (happening very soon!).
